Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Wishes on the wedding list

I am considering a lot of things at the moment..
Everytime i think of too many things at one go, i just feel my head is gonna feel really painful after a while..

1) to go online and file my tax.. shit, i lost my form so im gonna calculate myself... duh.. and gona do it for Dear too.. sucks..
2) i really wanted that hotel.. but dear is not receptive how?? im gona be very sad if its not held at that hotel
3) the food looks delicious & I really want my guest to enjoy the food on my wedding day & rave abt it even years later! hee.. cos im gona be happy hearing that many years down the road
4) seriously considering not to hold any banquet if i cant get my dream wedding banquet venue.. dear was like: " am I serious?" after seeing my face, he knows I am.
5) thinking of so many constraints in terms of budget that i feel like time can just stop & let me save enough money for the wedding .. it sucks everytime when i feel that i cant have what i dream of.. weddings are supposed to be happy events but somehow im still not feeling it.. starting to feel sorry for myself :(
6) my kneecap is now feeling painful.. must be rheumatism .. duh... am I dat OLD?

A vey negative entry... sorry if any1 happen to read this.. dun mean to spoil ur mood

Monday, March 15, 2010

Weekend munchies...

Been eating alot these past few days..

Friday- catch up with JC frens at a jap restaurant famous for its soba but it was quite dissapointing.. the tempura was still ok la.. went to meet my Dear at a pub & went home with him very drunken.. still went to mac for supper cos Dear was super hungry & grouchy. In the end, i ate some fries, causing me to have difficulty sleeping.. yikes!!

Sat - went back after work to have pizza hut with Dear... we order curry chicken pizza & baked rice & meatballs.. meatballs were so filling, in the end we ate 6 out of 8 meatballs.. haha.. dinner was zi char.. & we were like ordering 4 plates of dish. Dear commented dat he din know why he allowed me to order the 4th dish.. cos obviously it's toom much for us:)

Sun - Breakfast as usual eating porridge & dinner was at bt timah eating chees onion prata.. Dear had cheese prata & plain one.. later bought keropok back home to eat..haha.. abort the idea to eat ice cream at udders..so next time ba :)

Monday, March 8, 2010

A beginning of an End

Finally, dear called the "N" hotel to cancel the booking.. so we will be forfieting $3000 in all.. me heartache but no choice, it was a mistake solely made by me..

Was thinking of rushing things & I finally learn it by the painful way called: "Nong qiao fan zhuo". How long to save 3k?? A freaking 1 year, thats how it took me cos im earning such a miserable pay.. i really hope i tio 4D to cover my loss.. damn.. and the silly "travel agency".. i really hope that one day they go bankrupt & I dun need to pay anymore... shit!!! im bonded to them for 99 years loh... so shitty..

Lotsa mistakes made over the past 2 years.. sometimes i really hate myself for what I have done.. how can i be so stupid?!? On 1 hand, im thankful that i have learnt not to be impulsive when Im almost tempted to sign a bridal package at a bridal show, thanks to dear:) But how i wish that he was more assertive the 1st 2 times when i made the impulsive decisions.. we would have a substantial amt of savings by now... feel like crying everytime i think about it. :(

I truly hope that everything will start on a clean slate & everything will go smoothly from now on.. life... can be so complicated but i hope to see everything clearly this time round.. On a somber note, im glad to live through what I have for the past 28 years.. The death of someone staying in my block today & seeing his pair of slippers made me wonder what had caused him to end his life abruptly. If anyone is reading this, hope u can learn to live life happily.. health is always the most important, be nice to people around u & they will also learn to be nice too.. Slowly, treasure whatever u have, be it your parents, siblings, your career.. even doing your fav hobby as well.. may u be blessed always with happiness & good health:)